Its gonna be a good life..

Hi blog. So since we last spoke, things have changed.. quite the hostess job, got another job at a doggie daycare, worked at a cat rescue, and babysat. 3 jobs= nervous breakdown. I was literally seeing my life/sanity fall apart, and I didn't know where to turn. Things are really REALLY bad at home, no money, we have to move out, I gotta find a place to live... Just a nightmare. I keep trying to tell myself that this is a test of my strength, I keep thinking of ways I can get myself out of this, but my mom keeps pulling me back. I don't make much money, and the money I do make I need to save for my future, but, alas, my mother is broke too, meaning she needs me. This is the age old dilemma: am I selfish if I don't give the money to her? Or am I stupid for giving up everything I have worked for? AmeriCorps has been on my mind so much lately, I miss it so much. I've applied for several VISTA and State and National jobs, but those are so competitive, I have no idea whats to come of it.

I'm supposed to be living for school in September- but what to do until then is the problem. I've figured it out though: give my 2 week notice at work (just when i'm starting to like it, of course) then take a train to Oregon where I will work on a farm for the month of June. As for July and August, I'll leave that to when the time comes.

This sounds like a good plan to me, I need to worry about myself, but thats hard for me to do. And the CATS what are we going to do about those bitches??? UGGHHHH THIS IS A TEST! I CAN DO ANYTHING! Ok, this was a rant of sorts, but its kinda like a suspense novel, isn't it?

For the First time

Hi blog. It's been a very, very long time since we last rendezvoused, and I apologize immensely. A lot has happened since I was last on: graduated AmeriCorps, took a cross country road trip with 7 sometimes 8 people; and applied for jobs; lots, and LOTS of jobs. I was extremely sad when the month long sabbatical ended with me taking a lonesome solo flight back home, complete with tears as Cat dropped me off at the SF airport. The first 2 weeks were really tough: moping around, having every little thing remind me of my AmeriFriends and teammates, of wishing I could remember things, and wishing I could forget others- I would literally cry when I heard such ridiculous songs as: "Bad Romance" and "Bottoms Up" because they remind me of my beloved memories that seem almost like dreams now.

Well, now that I've set a somber mood for everyone... I am looking for a job; well, technically I just got one- but I don't think it will be fulfilling, but its good for right now, because good LORD do I need money. Things are pretty rough out there, I had the fortune of being in AmeriCorps for the past year, and having a job before that, so I didn't know quite the severity of our current financial situation; more like catastrophe. I was looking/applying to every job I could think of for a solid month after I got home- and when I got an interview, there were at least 10 other people (at the time) vying for the same mediocre job. It's very disheartening, and it made me very, well for lack of a fancy word, sad. Just plain sad. But thank the gods, I was offered a hostess position at Gyu- Kaku, a new Japanese restaurant in Tustin. Funny story: they had me do a sudoku at the interview!

Ok, well since I haven't written in a while, I thought I would make this blog a transition from AmeriCorps life, to my life after AmeriCorps, or LAA. I had my mind set on moving to Sacramento for LAA, but those plans were shot down after I was needed at home to pay for shit, remember, times are tough folks... So that makes me bitter, but I figured if I have my eye on a certain monetary goal, I will work my hardest to achieve that goal, for, if you don't know me, I am a very goal driven person. So, yes, thats whats going on now, and I will try to keep up with this blog, seeing as how I'm not going to school, and will need to keep my IQ up, or at least at the average percentage it is now.

Until then,

Lily