Hi blog. So since we last spoke, things have changed.. quite the hostess job, got another job at a doggie daycare, worked at a cat rescue, and babysat. 3 jobs= nervous breakdown. I was literally seeing my life/sanity fall apart, and I didn't know where to turn. Things are really REALLY bad at home, no money, we have to move out, I gotta find a place to live... Just a nightmare. I keep trying to tell myself that this is a test of my strength, I keep thinking of ways I can get myself out of this, but my mom keeps pulling me back. I don't make much money, and the money I do make I need to save for my future, but, alas, my mother is broke too, meaning she needs me. This is the age old dilemma: am I selfish if I don't give the money to her? Or am I stupid for giving up everything I have worked for? AmeriCorps has been on my mind so much lately, I miss it so much. I've applied for several VISTA and State and National jobs, but those are so competitive, I have no idea whats to come of it.
I'm supposed to be living for school in September- but what to do until then is the problem. I've figured it out though: give my 2 week notice at work (just when i'm starting to like it, of course) then take a train to Oregon where I will work on a farm for the month of June. As for July and August, I'll leave that to when the time comes.
This sounds like a good plan to me, I need to worry about myself, but thats hard for me to do. And the CATS what are we going to do about those bitches??? UGGHHHH THIS IS A TEST! I CAN DO ANYTHING! Ok, this was a rant of sorts, but its kinda like a suspense novel, isn't it?
